Chapter 9: CONTRADICTION
what we want to be and what we are. The state of contradiction creates conflict and this conflict does not bring about peace.
If we can understand this fully and hence be free of contradiction, then there can be inward peace, which will bring understanding of each other.
Seeing that conflict is destructive, wasteful, why is it that in each of us there is contradiction?
If I regard life not as a permanent desire but as a series of temporary desires which are constantly changing, then there is no contradiction.
Thought can never be tranquil; thought, which is the product of time, can never find that which is timeless, can never know that which is beyond time. The very nature of our thinking is a contradiction, because we are always thinking in terms of the past or of the future; therefore we are never fully cognizant, fully aware of the present.
To be fully aware of the present is an extraordinarily difficult task because the mind is incapable of facing a fact directly without deception. Thought is the product of the past and therefore it can only think in terms of the past or the future; it cannot be completely aware of a fact in the present.
To be free of contradiction, one must be aware of the present without choice. How can there be choice when you are confronted with a fact? Surely the understanding of the fact is made impossible so long as thought is trying to operate upon the fact in terms of becoming, changing, altering.
To know the whole process, the totality of oneself, does not require any expert, any authority.
No expert, no specialist, can show us how to understand the process of the self. One has to study it for oneself.
Chapter 10: WHAT IS THE SELF?
In it is included the competition, the desire to be. the self is dividing: the self is self-enclosing: its activities, however noble, are separative and isolating.
According to my memories, I react to whatever I see, to whatever I feel. In this process of reacting to what I see, what I feel, what I know, what I believe, experience is taking place.
When I desire silence of the mind, what is taking place? What happens? I see the importance of having a silent mind, a quiet mind, for various reasons; because the Upanishads have said so, religious scriptures have said so, saints have said it, and also occasionally I myself feel how good it is to be quiet, because my mind is so very chatty all the day. At times I feel how nice, how pleasurable it is to have a peaceful mind, a silent mind. The desire is to experience silence. I want to have a silent mind, and so I ask ”How can I get it?” I know what this or that book says about meditation, and the various forms of discipline. So through discipline I seek to experience silence. The self, the ‘me’, has therefore established itself in the experience of silence.
All the various forms of discipline, belief and knowledge surely only strengthen the self. Can we find an element which will dissolve the self?
Any movement of the mind, positive or negative, is an experience which actually strengthens the ‘me’. Is it possible for the mind not to recognize? That can only take place when there is complete silence, but not the silence which is an experience of the self and which therefore strengthens the self.
The virtuous person who is conscious of pursuing virtue can never find reality.
That is why it is so important to be poor, not only in the things of the world but also in belief and in knowledge. A man with worldly riches or a man rich in knowledge and belief will never know anything but darkness.
we shall know what love is. I assure you that is the only reformation which can possibly change the world. Love is not of the self. Self cannot recognize love.