Can a mind, can a conscious mind, be free from this desire to be secure?
Belief destroys. Can I see myself when I am caught in this process of desire, which expresses itself in clinging to a belief?
”I know” is another wall separating you and me. Behind that wall you take refuge, seeking comfort, security. Therefore the more knowledge a mind is burdened with, the less capable it is of understanding.
I do not know if you have ever thought of this problem of acquiring knowledge - whether knowledge does ultimately help us to love, to be free of conflicts in ourselves and with our neighbours; whether knowledge ever frees the mind of ambition. ambition put man against man; it destroys relationship.
Even the spiritual ambition - to be something.
Is it ever possible for the mind to be free from this accumulating process of knowledge, this desire to know?
It is a very interesting thing to watch how in our life these two, knowledge and belief, play an extraordinarily powerful part. Look how we worship those who have immense knowledge and erudition!
Unfortunately, every time you see something new you bring in all the information known to you already, all your knowledge, all your past memories; and obviously you become incapable of looking, incapable of receiving anything that is new, that is not of the old.
Our problem then, as I see it, is that we are bound, weighed down by belief, by knowledge; and is it possible for a mind to be free from yesterday and from the beliefs that have been acquired through the process of yesterday?
Is it possible for me as an individual and you as an individual to live in this society and yet be free from the belief in which we have been brought up?
Obviously what you pursue and seek, you will find. But is it reality? is it not the projection of your own knowledge?
Is it possible to realize now, and say ”I see the truth of it”, and let it go, so that your mind is not crippled by this process of imagination, of projection?
While your conscious mind is quietly thinking, listening and watching, the unconscious mind is much more active, much more alert and much more receptive
if you can see it for a fleeting second, it is enough; because you will then see an extraordinary thing taking place.
Belief and knowledge are the processes of recognition, the centre of the mind.
Can the mind be free of its own structure? Can the mind cease to be? That is the problem. Mind, as we know it, has belief behind it, has desire, the urge to be secure, knowledge, and accumulation of strength.
If, with all its power and superiority, one cannot think for oneself there can be no peace in the world. You may talk about peace, you may organize political parties, you may shout from the housetops; but you cannot have peace; because in the mind is the very basis which creates contradiction, which isolates and separates.
A mind that would be in a state in which the new can take place - whether it be the truth, whether it be God, or what you will - must surely cease to acquire, to gather; it must put aside all knowledge. A mind burdened with knowledge cannot possibly understand, surely, that which is real, which is not measurable.
Chapter 8: EFFORT
FOR MOST OF US, our whole life is based on effort. Our social, economic and socalled spiritual life is a series of efforts, always culminating in a certain result.
If we do not make an effort, we think we shall stagnate.
We have an idea about the goal towards which we are constantly striving; and this striving has become part of our life.
Is not all such effort the activity of the self?
If we make an effort from the centre of the self, it must inevitably produce more conflict, more confusion, more misery. Yet we keep on making effort after effort. Very few of us realize that the self-centred activity of effort does not clear up any of our problems.
Does happiness come through effort? You struggle to be happy and there is no happiness.
So do we not strive, struggle, make effort, in the hope of finding happiness, finding something which will give us a feeling of peace, a sense of love?
Does not effort mean a struggle to change what is into what is not, or into what it should be or should become? That is we are constantly struggling to avoid facing what is, or we are trying to get away from it or to transform or modify what is.
A man who is truly content is the man who understands what is, gives the right significance to what is. That is true contentment; it is not concerned with having few or many possessions but with the understanding of the whole significance of what is; and that can only come when you recognize what is, when you are aware of it, not when you are trying to modify it or change it.
Effort is a distraction from what is. The moment I accept what is there is no struggle.
When do you create? Surely when there is no effort, when you are completely open, when on all levels you are in complete communication, completely integrated. Then there is joy and then you begin to sing or write a poem or paint or fashion something. The moment of creation is not born of struggle.
Is creativeness the outcome of effort, and are we aware in those moments when we are creative? Or is creativeness a sense of total self-forgetfulness, that sense when there is no turmoil, when one is wholly unaware of the movement of thought, when there is only a complete, full, rich being?
is that state the result of travail, of struggle, of conflict, of effort?
Because I am nothing, because I am insufficient, empty, inwardly poor, I struggle to become something; outwardly or inwardly.
Being aware that we are empty, inwardly poor, we struggle either to collect things outwardly, or to cultivate inward riches.
through acquisition, through achievement, through power. That is our daily existence. I am aware of my insufficiency, my inward poverty, and I struggle to run away from it or to fill it. This running away, avoiding, or trying to cover up the void, entails struggle, strife, effort.
Now if one does not make an effort to run away, what happens? One lives with that loneliness, that emptiness; and in accepting that emptiness one will find that there comes a creative state which has nothing to do with strife, with effort. Effort exists only so long as we are trying to avoid that inward loneliness, emptiness, but when we look at it, observe it, when we accept what is without avoidance, we will find there comes a state of being in which all strife ceases.
Therefore action as we know it is really reaction, it is a ceaseless becoming, which is the denial, the avoidance of what is.
but when there is awareness of emptiness, then in that understanding of what is there is action, and this action is creative being.
You will understand this if you are aware of yourself in action. Observe yourself as you are acting, not only outwardly but see also the movement of your thought and feeling.
The idea of becom1ng arises only when there is a sense of insecurity, and that sense of insecurity comes when one is aware of the inward void. If you are aware of that process of thought and feeling, you will see that there is a constant battle going on, an effort to change, to modify, to alter what is.
Through self-knowledge, through constant awareness, you will find that strife, battle, the conflict of becoming, leads to pain, to sorrow and ignorance.
It is only if you are aware of inward insufficiency and live with it without escape, accepting it wholly, that you will discover an extraordinary tranquillity, a tranquillity which is not put together, made up, but a tranquillity which comes with understanding of what is. Only in that state of tranquillity is there creative being.